January 27, 2011

Kimi ni Todoke S2 Ep3: The Melancholy of Kazehaya Shota

Posted in Kimi ni Todoke tagged , , , at 10:44 pm by meotwister5

Kazehaya likely doesn’t fully understand the way he’s running the gamut of emotions these days.  Watching the girl he likes continue to be oblivious to his (admittedly) poor attempts to make his feelings known is making him cycle through anger, jealousy, depression and whatever else someone madly in love goes through.  As a whole I’d call it a pervading sense of melancholia on his part, considering that as he watches Kenta make his moves around Sawako (with his motives still vague), he really doesn’t know what he wants or needs to do.

Since we only get 13 episodes this season, he better act damn fast!

What a dick.

Another day another awkward meeting.  These days Sawako is still just struggling to return her relationship with Shota back to the previous status quo, and not to what it is now post-Valentine’s Day.  With oddball Miura Kenta thrown into the mix and pushing Sawako towards things she has never done before in a pace faster than her two closest friends, it’s no wonder that as she tries to change and fit in to a new class under Kenta’s prodding Shota’s getting all emotional and out of character.  The biggest thing Kenta has done so far of course is to convince Sawako to hold a review session as she is one of the top students of her batch, a review session that has almost unsurprisingly gathered a lot more people than initially thought (with Shota’s assistance of course) and, as she teaches and smiles her way through, causes Shota to realize something new and better about the apple of his eye.

He is a new species of male.

Say what you will about Kenta.  He may a pompous and meddling dick, but he’s a pompous and meddling dick with a heart of gold.  If there’s been anything consistent about him and his actions, it’s his almost completely earnest desire to help Sawako overcome some of her issues despite his methods and her friends’ objections.  One admirable about his is that he’s straight out and honest, and to be fair I have never really felt any insidious intentions emanating from him.  He speaks with tactlessness and acts without restraint, but you can tell that he’s a good guy at heart who really wants to help Sawako.  Of course it’s never going to be easy to tell whether his intentions are romantic or platonic, but he’s helping her in his own way, and you really can’t fault him for that.

Also, free horror stories!

Sawako on the other hand is showing her apparent desire to put back things the way they were before all the awkwardness of February 14, despite the fact that by now she knows she’s consciously denying herself what she feels for what she believes is the right thing for everyone.  As I had mentioned previously, her all genuine niceness is a double edged sword and in being consistent with her beliefs and core personality she assumes she must not take him for himself.  Even then the awkwardness shows: she can hardly greet him with a straight face as she usually does and she can’t even be with him as a friend like the year prior.  Any meeting with him becomes a flushed and embarrassed affair;  for all her attempts to reconnect with him in the old way, she is unable to do it.

She can’t because of one simple truth:  things can’t be the way they were.  Sawako has crossed beyond the threshold of platonic relationships before she had even realized it.  Now that she has, she denies it out of an almost self-emptying approach she takes to human relationships.  Sawako acts as though she needs to throw herself towards others to gain their companionship, yet for the only person she should really throw her heart to, she cannot.  An ironic twist of fate it is.

I wish she'd smile more often.

After seeing her smile, I think one can see the melancholy that has engulfed Shota slowly melt away.  Seeing her smile reminded her of previous days where they’d hang out and Sawako would be her usually awkward yet honest self.  For the past few months Kazehaya has been unsure of both himself and her feelings, further compounded (inadvertently) by Kento’s intrusions into Sawako’s life.  Not getting chocolates from her surely came as a shock to him, but chocolate is chocolate, it is merely symbolism for something, and just because he didn’t get any doesn’t mean she didn’t think any good of him.

Seeing her smile that smile that he probably used to think was only for him, reminded him of why he fell in love with her in the first place, and reminds him now of just how far Sawako has come to be able to smile like that for everyone else.  I would think that, perhaps, he’s seen some of the folly of his selfishness.  He would come to realize that this isn’t the Sawako of before, but a Sawako who has become a very different person now, mostly because of what he has done for her.  With that smile he remembers just who this girl is and why he felt he wanted to be with her.  Not getting chocolate, Kento getting in the way and the awkwardness between them means nothing; if he really wants to be with her he knows he has to keep trying for both their sakes.  He can’t be depressed anymore, because if he keeps on being depressed, perhaps Kento will really take her away.  With that smile he remembers that he needs to make a choice: to continue or not to continue.

His final comments are indeed vague, at least for Sawako, but I think he’s found new courage to be free from his melancholia and do what he thinks is right.

Things will change.

IIRC the next episode is a very big change for them and the story, and not just a turning point for the show.

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